Hands

In the grip of Christ, we have no need.

My dad drew up my hand and placed it next to my grandfather’s, who was in the casket.  He then placed his next to mine, so that all three were in a row, saying, “You see, Sammy, where you get your hands?”  My young eyes noticed the similarities between my grandpa’s hands, my dad’s, and my own.  Each had the same wrinkly skin and stubby strength, passed on from generation to generation.  In that moment, as a little boy, I learned more than just genetics; I learned that everyone you love, will leave you, no matter how strong his hands.

Our safety in life is not found in all the trivial and temporary things that can be stripped away in a second.  Our comfort in life is not found in plans, pleasures, power, or people, for all will vanish.  If we place ourselves into their greasy hands, we will slip right out.  These things will always let you down.  People will always let you down, your possessions will always let you down, pleasures will always let you down.  None of these have hands that are fit to hold the human soul.

So what should you give yourself to and where is your solace found?  Recently, some have said that religion is not the answer.  They are quick to point out that Religion will let us down, too—that religion hurts, drops, kills.  It is graspless.

When your friends fail, when your money disappears, when your reputation is tattered, where is your comfort to be found?  Even more, when your life itself refuses to breathe again, what is your comfort in death?  What will hold you then?

It seems that we need hands that have been both to heaven and earth.  We need hands that hold the power of the cosmos and that hold the palm of the child.  We need hands that have thrust the stars into their orbits and that have thrust the heart into the human.  We need hands that have both the power to heal and the tenderness to hold.

The hands of Jesus Christ are the hands for us.  Not only did they spin the world into motion, but also they touched the oozing sores of a leper and dried the tears of a prostitute.  They wakened the universe with power and they writhed in pain from mortal nails.  His hands were both divine and dead, miraculous and mortal.

The holes in his hands are a portal through which heaven and earth touch.  And that is where he holds us.  That is our solace and comfort.  That is where we will never be shaken, the spot from which we will never be let go.  In the grip of Christ, we have no need.  In the grip of Christ, we can let go of our troubles, our idols, and our self-definitions.

What is truly, deeply, our only comfort?  Even the most non-religious person can see that our comfort is not in what we can hold onto, for our grasp is so weak and the natural course of this life rips everything out of our grip.  My solace and comfort come not from what I can hold onto, but from Whom is holding onto me.

So reads the Heidelberg Catechism, “What is your only comfort in life and in death?”  The answer: “That I am not my own, but belong—body and soul, in life and in death—to my faithful Savior Jesus Christ.”

You belong to Jesus Christ and he will never let go of you.

He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation.  For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him.  And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.[1]

© Samuel Kee, 2012


[1] Colossians 1:15-17, ESV.

Weight Room

The weight room at Ashland University, where I went to school.

I remember the day that I first started working out—pumping iron.  It was 1987 and I was in the basement of an old school, where there was a simple room of free-weights.  I was in junior high and let’s just say, I was “under-sized.”  Yes, I was small, maybe 65 pounds with my backpack on.  And the weight room was not my favorite place to be, but I had to if I wanted to be on the wrestling team.

It was so embarrassing.  I couldn’t even lift the bench press bar ten times.  Girls my age were lifting more than I was.  I was so weak.

Fast forward to my college years and again see me in the weight room.  After a decade of working out, I could finally lift the bar!  And maybe a little more.  One time I was trying to out-bench (impress) another person in the weight room.  So I slapped a bunch of 45-pound weights on the bar, totaling about 300 pounds.  I got on the bench and put it up and then slowly lowered it to my chest; only, I couldn’t get it back up!  With some serious metal squashing down on my chest and neck, I panicked.  After struggling with it for a while, and seeing stars in the process, I finally got it up.  I think a girl helped me…

These are the images I get when I read Romans 8:3:

“For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do.”

Our “flesh” is totally weak when it comes to spiritual lifting.  And if we think that the law is going to help us, we’re dead wrong.  We’ll be crushed under the weight of it, no matter how many years we work-out.  The truth is that there is no one who can lift the burden of the law.  That’s why the verse says that God did it for us, “by sending his own Son” (also verse 3).  God’s Son came and lifted the weight of the law for us, since we were so weak.

The lesson of this is deeply profound.  This means that we can never impress God.  It means that God is not in Heaven, wringing his hands, waiting for us to finally get it right.  God has no expectations for us, none at all.  He knows that we will be crushed, unless he comes to rescue us.

We are crushed by lies, crushed by accusations, crushed by failures, crushed by doubts, crushed by despair, crushed by envy, crushed by rejection, crushed by loneliness, crushed by purposelessness, crushed by insufficiency, crushed by slander, crushed by misunderstanding, crushed by ridicule, crushed by un-forgiveness, crushed by misfortune, crushed by hatred, crushed by apathy, crushed by evil, crushed by sickness, crushed by death.  All of it is jammed near our neck, and it’s only a matter of time before it kills us.  Then Romans 8:11 says:

“If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.”

So long as we’re being crushed, then life is not possible.  But if we allow God to take the weight from us, then we can finally have life.  Purpose and joy are not found in performance (as an employee, spouse, friend, athlete, citizen, etc.), but in God.  Did you get that?  This needs to be repeated: purpose and joy and not found in performance, but in God.  If you want to be free from the stuff that is crushing you, then stop trying to lift it.  Cry out to God and say, “Take everything that I can’t, and then take me.”

© Samuel Kee, 2011

Our Tree

The tree is the portal through which we find God.

The summer after my second grade year, I fell from a tree.  No one knows how far up I was, it’s estimated that I was thirty to forty feet above the ground.  At least that’s what they tell me.  I can’t remember any of it.

Evidently, an ambulance came and picked me up, taking me to Children’s Hospital in Akron, Ohio; again, I’m sorry I “missed” that.  It would have been cool to see an ambulance drive through our yard.  Then I was unconscious at the hospital for a week or two, I’m not sure how long exactly.  Again, I can’t remember any of it.  I’ve seen some pictures of me in the hospital, but that’s about it.  The fall knocked the memory of this event clear out of my head.

I’m usually a very careful climber, so I’m not sure what went wrong that summer afternoon (or was it morning?).  My brother and I were playing in the woods together, as we usually did.  My guess is that a branch broke, in my zeal to get to the top.

While I don’t have a memory of “the tree,” my guess is that you do.  You remember the tree, though not the one in Northeastern, Ohio.  The tree that we all remember was in the Garden of Eden.  It’s the tree we’re aching for and, therefore, searching for.  It’s the Tree of Life, which God banned our first parents, Adam and Eve, from discovering.

The Tree of Life is in the collective memory of humankind.  It’s “home.”  It’s the place of longing, the place of dreams, the place we’re searching for, beneath and behind everything we do.  Love.  Life.  Joy.  Meaning.  Significance.  Relationship.  Eternity.  Beauty.

Unlike my tree, none of us can shake the memory of our Tree.  Though we’ve fallen from it, we desperately want to find it.  But is it still there?  In other words, can any human have the deepest desires of the heart met?

It’s curious to note that the cross of Jesus was also known as “the tree” (Galatians 3:13, 1 Peter 2:24, Acts 5:30).  Jesus died on the tree.  Jesus was broken by the curse on the tree.  The tree meant death for Jesus—but life for us.  At the same moment, it was both a place of cursing and blessing, of death and life.  The tree of the cross is the new Tree of Life, the portal through which we return to the Garden of Eden, the very Paradise of God—home.

Through the cross, we find God.  We find life.  Our longings and dreams meet their object at last.

© Samuel Kee, 2011

Darlene

Darlene with her son Clayton at his wedding this past June

A friend of mine passed away late last night, her name was Darlene Anderson.  She was a courageous woman, who fought a three-year long battle with cancer.  She is survived by her dear husband, Ted, her children, grandchildren, and many friends.

Darlene meant a lot to a lot of people, especially to me.  She believed in me over the years and stood up for me many times.  She was never afraid of adversity, I can honestly say that.  I’ve witnessed her head straight into a storm, completely undaunted, again and again.  She was a truly brave human being.

And she could talk to anyone, which is one thing about her that I admired so much.  One time we were eating at a camp together.  Joining us at the table was a young man that we did not know.  He wore dark clothes, was big, and intimidating.  He kept his head down and wore headphones, making it clear that he did not want to talk with anyone.  As it turns out, he also had some sort of mental handicap.  I knew that Darlene was good at making conversation, but this was a true test!  I thought to myself, “There is no way that she can get this guy to talk.”

In about 30 seconds, she found a way to engage him in conversation.  After a minute, he lifted his head; and after three minutes, she had him laughing.  She was talking with him and he was talking with her.  I’ll never forget that moment.  Darlene was a complete social genius.  She could talk to anyone and make anyone feel comfortable with her, no matter how awkward or ostracized they felt.

Did I mention that she was fearless?  She was never afraid to stand up for what was right or to go the extra mile toward justice.  You always knew where she stood.

She genuinely cared for me, my wife, and my children, sacrificing her time and energy to help us.

She thought the world of her husband—telling me so multiple times—and treasured each of her five children.  She was so proud of you.

In Psalm 23, David writes, “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil.”  Darlene did not pitch her tent in the valley, but blazed an inspiring trail through it; and now she is safe on the other side.  Safe?  Yes, safe.  Death to her was not the real thing, but only a shadow.  And nobody is afraid of a shadow.  The shadow of an animal cannot bite; the shadow of a sword cannot kill.  Neither can the shadow of death harm those who walk through the valley, for Jesus has made the journey safe for us.

Darlene, my family and I love you.  You trusted God with all of your heart, soul, mind, and strength.

Poem in Memory of a Friend

I only can think of Easter.

She’s the smartest woman I have ever known.

Was.  Now her mind is gone.

So is the hair on her head.

She’s on the bed face caught in a web

Of tubes for breath for life,

His wife.  The man who has stood

By her side—not perfect, often drunk—

But she’s his bride to the end,

His friend.  “Undo it!”

“Undo what?” honey.

“Undo it!” she says.

He doesn’t understand.  His eyes birth tears.

Mine glimpse fears.  She makes no sense;

The cancer brought incoherence.

She was once so quick of logic and wit.

But now she can’t relate.  It’s been just 30 days

Since the doctor fortuned this fate.

I sit on the spill proof chair, holding my Bible,

Trying to share and weep and care

And be there.  I only can think of Easter.

If that man stays dead in that damned tomb,

I have nothing to say.  Instead, if he stands

I hear God tremble as he commands,

 

“Undo it.”

 

© 2010 by Samuel Kee